Every now and then I take a step back.

My risky venture didn't work out too well. Now I'm back looking for work. I guess its a season of pruning. My faith has been stretched to its limits that last two years. I need to get started in a direction. Wondering in the desert is bad enough. The promised land looks a way off. But my obligations are immediate.

My new venture may be coming to a dead end. But, I'm grateful for what I'm learning and have done. It must mean God has something else in mind. I'm now looking at the wilderness as a closing of a chapter. I was watching a special on Winston Churchill on PBS Sunday and he said this,"..... Now this is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning." That's the way I feel.

When beginning this blog I titled it Christian Wilderness Experience. I was in the wilderness. I wanted to journal the feelings and experiences, that a seeker goes through. I never want to pull punches or spin things for God. I just wanted honesty. I did think for a while it would end with my wife finishing this after my suicide. It was that bad. But now even though nothing has changed much in my financial or career situation, my journey in Christ has definitely turned a corner. (Thanks June and Ron for your prayers!)

Let me say it this way:

Psalm 78:52-54 But made his own people to go forth like sheep, and guided them in the wilderness like a flock. And he led them on safely, so that they feared not: but the sea overwhelmed their enemies. And he brought them to the border of his sanctuary, even to this mountain, which his right hand had purchased.

Praise God!!!