I've immersed myself in my new job to take my mind off of everything. But lately, I still am bothered by the silence of God. I don't want to deal with it anymore. I can't coerce God into connecting with me, I've begged pleaded and cried. I hear the same stuff from people when I ask for help. "You must have sin in your life,
you have bad theology, you must get baptized in the Holy Spirit," they counsel. I know how Job felt surrounded by "counselors" in the guise of "friends." All I know is this wilderness experience.