With the new year approaching I honestly say that I am glad that the years are passing and the time of my departure is getting closer. Funny thing, I've been waiting for the rapture since I got saved 28 years ago. Now it's a race which comes first - death or the rapture. Either way that's OK with me.

There just has to be a way to deeply experience the Holy Spirit's power. I know I have to rely totally on Him. He has brought me the hardest test of my life. It's all I can do to keep my family together. My church isn't much help, sadly. Prayers are appreciated.

Epiphany:

From the Merriam Webster's Dictionary "(1): a usually sudden manifestation or perception of the essential nature or meaning of something (2): an intuitive grasp of reality through something (as an event) usually simple and striking (3): an illuminating discovery, realization, or disclosure b: a revealing scene or moment."

This is what my blog has been about. I have been seeking this. But, I have found it. It is that knowing that GOD has revealed Himself fully and completely. I knew it was there all along, but my priorities where screwed up. It was there all along but I was looking in the wrong place. I was seeking the little "g" god of of personal peace and prosperity. But the big "G" God showed up and revealed Himself!!! I somehow knew He would. But His ways are not our ways. Thanks for all your prayers, they are being answered.
Especially AZRON and Praywithhope

My son had his car stolen and totaled over the weekend. The tree roots are causing our sewer to back up. My wifes job hangs by a thread. My mom's had a paralyzing stroke. My job is struggling with not much money coming in. But in all this trouble I have to rely on Romans 8:28.

Its been sometime in the wilderness. But my unresolved dilemma is this. I know for sure that God lead me in my decision to buy a business. Then it failed. I can't resolve that God leads us into failure. I would think He would let us fail if we sinned or were immoral. But it goes deeper than a matter of trust. It cuts to the heart of the problem. How can I honestly tell someone its possible to discern Gods will and then say it may be a risk of failure. That doesn't sound like much more than chance. My agnostic friend sees no conflict because he thinks a is chaos anyway.