I've been super busy in my new job. It's a ton of stuff to learn and absorb. I am thankful for that, it gets me engaged and takes my mind of my former troubles. I'm sure it's God at work. I also learned (after I started)one of the management team goes to my church. Cool Huh!!

After a long period of time both my son and me got jobs. We both start on Monday March 5. So that is great news. I think the darkness is lifting at little. Anyway, Thank you Lord Jesus.

I guess the problem is that as darkness surrounds us we keep making excuses why God can't answer prayer or hear us (or communicate with us.) The more tragedy and suffering we see we kind of want to tend to spin it away from God. But, He is in control and the buck stops there-with Him. I will never give up until I confront that God, any other god is idolatry. So after Him I go.

Over the weekend I spent 15 hours and 16 hours consecutively in prayer and sleep. I would pray until I fell asleep. I begged God to communicate with me, I'm so disparate. I know He's there, but He's not talking. I am hanging on by a thread. I am losing hope. I just don't know what is happening. There is an answer I know but when? Job heard in the wind, Balaam heard from his donkey, and I am asking for much less.

If I can get to this place all will be right. But, that is the problem. I need to get to this place, But how?

Phi 4:11 And I am not saying this because I feel neglected, for I have learned to be satisfied with what I have.
Phi 4:12 I know what it is to be in need and what it is to have more than enough. I have learned this secret, so that anywhere, at any time, I am content, whether I am full or hungry, whether I have too much or too little.
Phi 4:13 I have the strength to face all conditions by the power that Christ gives me.