I used to have a sign on my golf bag. Funny, when you have the money to play golf you don't have the time and when you have the time you don't have the money, but I digress. The sign said, "Golf doesn't build character it reveals it!" So, it is in adversity. I want to remain strong and true to my Lord even though the storms of life are battering me. I want to encourage everyone that life is short and eternity is forever. Is your soul prepared. I know some skeptics are going to say that I'm just using God as a crutch. Well I can say that's not true. If it wasn't for the fear an reverence of the Lord I would take off to the beaches of South Texas and work on a shrimp boat and sleep on the beach and drink my life away. Out do Jimmy Buffet himself. I can tell you life is much harder believing in Jesus Christ. Grace is free but it ain't cheap.

As I go through this job hunt I don't want to slip back into the same old negative depression. I had a brother in Christ tell me because I was not "positive" enough that's why I'm having trouble. He's a big Joel Osteen fan. I'm not. I wish it was that simple. I know I did my job well. I do get down but battles of faith are not reduced to our positive mental attitude. I have come to learn God cares more about my character than career. He wants me to be more like Christ not just a better me. So I press on.

After what I've been through I have come to realize, that we as followers of Christ have to hold onto a trust that is complete and sure. I think that if we are any less certain that God can find us a job, then how can He trusted at any level. The aparent lack of results indicates that God is sovereign; my life is in shambles. Can my God be good and my life be bad? Am I out of His will? Then what? I have to conclude that God is good life is tough and God is with me even if it doesn't seem that way. Is it good theology or wishful thinking? Well on all I can do is "on (Christ)the solid rock I stand."

I have an interview today for a job that I think would be perfect for me. Pray for God to show favor toward me.
Dave

I am in the midst of the most horrific and dark moments of my life. I'm 56 years old and unemployed. If you read my first post on this blog you'll see how I thought I was lead to buy a business and it failed. Then unemployment, then taking on a very difficult and challenging job, that offered very little support and a lot of abuse. I didn't mind that so much because at this stage of life I'm a big boy I can handle verbal abuse. But I did need some kind of support which I got very little of. In retrospect I was almost set up to fail by a very unbalanced individual who at best is bi-polar at worst I'm not qualified to speculate, the bible says not to judge peoples hearts, so all my comments were about actions not motives. I didn't complain and turned the other cheek. I wanted to act like the Christian I profess to be. Any way who knows why I was put there. I am believing it was a test and this is all just a trial of my faith. But I honestly did a great job and overcame a lot. But all it amounts to right now is another failure. Positively thinking, it's all been a character builder. I used to have a sign on my golf bag (back when I could afford to play,) that said; "Golf doesn't build character, It reveals it." Well maybe that's what these trial are, a revealing of my character.